I was fine with it at first but then the doubt began to set in and the bad self talk. The questions Why God? What's the purpose and what is my purpose? Am I not good enough?
Yes, I wanted to stand there and try and open the closed door. We just were praying the night before at life group, why didn't those prayers stop the letter? The answer...God wasn't in it. We can get so caught up in the moment, in the self pity, the oh why me and not take notice to where He is leading. God does everything with purpose. Maybe the purpose of the first interview was to give me confidence for the next opportunity, maybe it was to be a beacon of His light amongst the darkness, to shine His light for others to see, whatever the purpose it was the right plan.