This is a long overdue post.  God has been doing amazing things in our lives. Let me start back in December of 2011.  Abraham was injured at work and was denied workers comp.  He is the sole provider of our family.  What do we do?  We lean on the ultimate provider...God!

From December til June, we were able to pay our rent, car payment and food for our family with the help of those around us and most of God's provision.  These things I am grateful for but there is something else that tops all of that. 

In January, God began to peel away the layers in Abraham's heart and He began to become real to Abraham.  Abraham had become dependent on vicodin and alcohol over the previous months.  The alcohol was even longer.  Now, he was a sleepy drunk so I wished for some nights was that he would just go to sleep.  There were times when it was bad and I just couldn't take it anymore, I would cry out to God to do something, even that he wouldn't wake up the next day.  I really truly didnt want the latter but out of desperation it was the feeling at the time.

I had a group of prayer warriors praying for him and for our family.  I knew that my God would never fail me.  I knew that Higher than the mountains that I face...this one thing remains...Your love never fails, never gives up never runs out on me...

Abraham searched out a place to go for outpatient rehab.  He was led to the Naaman Center about 4 miles from our house.  He went the first day...they prayed with him and over him...God began to flood him with dreams and visions.  He began to read the Bible and pray everyday.  he asked that we start doing devotions as a family.  On some occasions he would ask that him and i take time to pray with each other. 

I had to keep pinching myself to be sure I was awake.  This was a SUDDENLY of God.  I could not do it, I could not change him.  The only thing that I could do was to prayer and intercede for my husband and my family.  We became members of our church and he began serving in different areas of ministry in the church.

It is such a wonderful thing when you are both on the page so to speak when it comes to serving the Lord.  I could tell you more about amazing things that have occurred in the journey since December but Abraham is doing great!  He is in a new job that has him home more and we have moved to a home that is near our church and 2 minutes from his job.  God is amazing and He has our destiny planned out.  All we need to do it TRUST, STEP and GO!!!

As I was recently at an eating establishment.  I came upon a one on one out with her client.  I used to work in the field and I have one pet peeve about people out with their clients or even just working with them as a whole….Treat them with dignity and respect. 

The individual was probably late teens, early twenties.  He had a communication device and used it to communicate what he wanted to eat.  I believe that he was autistic.  Now, if you have worked with autistic individuals or know someone, you know that there is a lot in there that is wanting or waiting to come out.  But given their disability some are unable to.  The key is to help them unlock the possibilities of how they can express themselves.

Okay, back to my day at the eating establishment.  The one on one in an octave unknown to man, would say “chheeeessse….bur….ger” in the individuals ear.  I believe she said it in that manner at least 30 times in the span of about 10 -15 minutes.  Seriously, this is how you would talk to an infant.  He is a grown man, treat him this way.  If I were the parent of this individual, I would not want my son to be spoken to in this manner.  It is degrading.  Just because he is unable to speak vocally, do not degrade him to an infant. 

Put yourself in the individual’s shoes, how would you feel?  Or even try to put yourself in the shoes of the parent of and individual who is Autistic or has a developmental disability.  It is time that we begin to bring back dignity and respect.  Maybe this is a one of the pieces of the puzzle to understand the individual and quite possibly a piece that helps them unlock a lock. 

Open and Closed Doors

Many times in life we are given opportunity to open a door but it is our choice what we do when we touch the doorknob.  I recently applied for a family based therapist position.  After my first interview, it seemed like I had the job.  I was flying high.  The HR person said I was born for this job.  So I patiently...okay...anxiously waited for the phone call to come in for a second interview.  I didn't want to check my mail because that meant bad news.  I got the call and went to the interview the next week.  This time I left there with no feeling.  And I got a letter saying that they were not going to be hiring me. 
I was fine with it at first but then the doubt began to set in and the bad self talk.  The questions Why God?  What's the purpose and what is my purpose?  Am I not good enough? 

I began to weep.  (Oh and I was cutting an onion, in case A or the kids came in to the kitchen).  Holy Spirit reminded me that I am MORE THAN GOOD ENOUGH.  So I put on the headphones and began to worship my King and Redeemer.  God has a better assignment for me.  A better place to take His kingdom and shine the Light. 

Yes, I wanted to stand there and try and open the closed door.  We just were praying the night before at life group, why didn't those prayers stop the letter?  The answer...God wasn't in it. We can get so caught up in the moment, in the self pity, the oh why me and not take notice to where He is leading.  God does everything with purpose.  Maybe the purpose of the first interview was to give me confidence for the next opportunity, maybe it was to be a beacon of His light amongst the darkness,  to shine His light for others to see, whatever the purpose it was the right plan. 

I may still feel bummed but I know that my God is greater and He does great things for those who love Him.  If you have experienced an open and closed door, look around for the door that He is opening.  God has your best in mind.  He is working on blessing you beyond your wildest dreams.  What will you choose...trying to open a closed door or keep your eyes fixed on Him and the next open door?

FREEDOOMM!!!





As I continue on this journey of coming to the realization that I am more than good enough, God continues to bring peace and revelation.  I am so thankful for the obedience of those who prophesied and leading me to break that yoke that was upon me. I am so in love with the feeling that freedom brings.  I just thought that my shoulders and neck were just always tired and tight because I am on the go.  But to come to find out that I have been carrying a yoke on me for years that should never have been there in the first place.  Like the picture above ~ the oxen are different colors ~ but once they come to know

  FREEDOM!!!  FREEDOM!!!!  FREEEEEDOOOMMM!!!!

That Christ's yoke is easy and His burden is light, we become like Him ~ (picture below)

Freedom reigns in this place....

What great joy and lightness freedom brings.  I will sing and I will dance and I will celebrate the freedom that life in Christ brings to my soul. He is a mighty warrior and we are part of the army of God. 

You do not need to live in bondage.  It is not healthy physically, mentally and/or emotionally.  I didn't know what was weighing me down.  I just thought that was how I was...always doing more to just fit in, to please someone, to not look like a failure.  Well, not any more...I declare that I will live my life Christ focused and when I do that His yoke is easy and His burden is light.   He tells me that I am more than good enough.   My lover is wooing me to come sit with Him and taste His sweet tea.  It is time to put all things aside and just sit.

More than GOOD enough, Jesus says.

Expectant...

Wow!  Summer is over and school has begun however the kids have had off school for 3 days thus far due to the flood that hit our area.  Until the water is safe and electricity is switched back, they will remain home.  We did not have any flooding in our home but those all around were effected.

Just brings me to think of Noah.  We had several days of rain and the destruction that occurred, he had 40 days of rain and that destruction.   The expectancy that Noah and his family had when the rain stopped...what was it?  Then to open the door to the ark and see nothing but water.  The uncertainty of what was going to happen next.  Noah knew and held on to the promise that God spoke, 'I have placed a rainbow in the sky to remind you that I will not bring this kind of destruction again' (my paraphrase)  He knew that his destiny was in the palm of Papa.

This week is the prophetic presbytery for the 3rd year School of Ministry Students.  I have great expectancy of what God is going to speak into my life on Thursday.  I am excited about the new antennae that He is fine tuning in me. 

How great is your expectancy?  Are you ready to see Papa fulfill your destiny?  Take you around the bend?  You are in the palm of His hand, be ready and expectant!

Unknown Power

For the past year and a half, I have been seeing 11:11 on the clock and just the number 11. This number 11 means transition. When you look up in the bible Deut. 11:11 "But the land into which you are about to cross to possess it, a land of hills and valleys, drinks water from the rain of heaven." (NLT) I know that my 11:11 experience is about to come forth. Not just in my own life but within our family unit of 5.


Recently, Abraham(husband) discovered unknown power that he didn't realize he was given. God has been preparing his heart for inner healing. Things that have occurred in his past that he never healed from emotionally. As he began to deal with this emotion that was coming out like a volcano exploding from a Friday to Sunday, God spoke to me and told me to tell him to use his power of worship.


As Abraham sat there at the keyboard trying to even play a note, you could feel the warfare. The fight going on to have him stay in this state of anger and hurt. As he pressed in for the next 2 days, he began to feel that anger and hurt lift off of him. He expressed that he never knew what true POWER was in worship when it came to warfare. I told him that "God has gifted you with worship. He created you with that gift. You began to unfold that gift at the age of 11. (note the age of 11) Now almost 38 years later, you are still unwrapping that gift. You have begun to see what is inside it. Allow God to reveal to you the power he has given you. He has a mighty destiny for your life. Your 11:11 experience is beginning. There is a reason for your gifting...to tear down the walls that only worship can bring down. Just like Joshua and the walls of Jericho, they marched around that city 7 times and who was in front...the worshippers, instruments, dancers and singers. Because in the time of worship, the enemy must flee."
I have read in a devotional entitled "Come Away My Beloved"... "when you begin to praise and worship, it is like when they build a new power plant and when they throw the switch and all the power goes on...THAT is the power of praise and worship."


Begin to ask God to help you open your gift....it may take 38 years or it may take a year...He has woven you for a purpose and a destiny. I am excited to see where our gifts are taking us in the future. I have seen a vision of us ministering together so here I am to say, "God, let's open the gift a little more."

Have an awesome day opening your gift from God.